So I am back from Outer Space

It’s been a year since my last post…went on hiatus. It’s been a while since I felt the need to express myself anonymously Got caught up with so many things...usual bloggers excuse. Made some life changing decisions. Moved to a new job… crazier but paying off. Travelled a bit…Hong Kong, Singapore, Bangkok…locally been out and about to beaches and frequently surfing. I miss the ride though. Haven’t been on a board for 3 months now and my body is craving for the rush. Watched some concerts and shows too. Swedish House was awesome…Avicii was cool…Summer Solstice was fun too. Seen International artist too…VIP tix do pay off…Ian Somerhalder, Zach Efron, Mario Maurer and Leighton Meister…I can’t believe I pass on Taylor Lautner recently. I guess I wasn’t really into him. Found myself screaming non-stop when I watched Maroon 5, The Script, Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, Foster the People, NKOTB and yes I am a music junkie. Lost some friend and met new ones…potential for my inner circle.

There are ups and downs…there are days you just scream and let off steam. We are human and no matter how we try to maintain a positive disposition there are days it will catch up on you. Days like that.. I just try to shake it off. I still have more than a quarter of 2013 and so far it’s been interesting.

That sums it up...life is happier and I wouldn’t want it any other way. =)

STATUS: In a Relationship?

Being in a relationship does not mean a person is happy neither does being single means he/she is sad. The culture that we have now associate happiness on the condition that every individual should be in a relationship. I don’t think they heard about single blessedness. People find it odd that an individual can find pleasure in being alone and free. Maybe it’s the past experiences and situations that I had where I always end up in a bad relationship. I needed time to heal and find myself whole again. I guess I am still at that stage and just enjoying the freedom I have now. Freedom from being conventional… freedom from expectations… freedom from limitations of what one can and cannot do…freedom to explore life and live it…freedom from pain…freedom from all the craziness of what a relationship brings.


Some journey can be heartbreaking. Pain and failures can make you beautiful and a better person. It can bring new possibilities. They can be life changing. It makes you strong and a better person.

Don’t get me wrong…I like being in love. I miss the feeling of being in love. I am a hopeless romantic. But there will come a time in your life where you have given away so much of yourself that you lose yourself in the process. You need time to be whole again. The way to do that is you take time off and just take care of yourself. You need to feel alive again…be excited about everything…experience life. Right now I am in love…I am in a relationship…I am happy…with ME, MYSELF and I. #happyheart

Walk away

There are things that just keeps coming back…things that you thought have died down and long gone. Then you didn’t realize you are at it again….going through the same roller coaster ride. Before things even start it’s time to STOP. There is no sense in doing it all over again when you would know how the story will end. It will just be a waste of time and energy. Why would you subject yourself into something that you would know will fail eventually?

 Time to walk away and don’t look back. Be the happy person that you have become and forget about the things that will make you unhappy. Walk away...This time it’s for good! #happyheart

Tiring but a good one

Driving duties, travelling, dinners, lunches, early workout at Plana, people visiting from abroad, family get together, night out and piles of work. I will start taking my French lesson soon and that will definitely eat up all my weekend time. Feeling tired and drained…this is crazy. I can’t keep up anymore and I have to stop. Definitely slowing down next month, cutting down on travelling and partying.


Had a great start today…as I approached my table I saw some goodies on it. Though I am not sure who gave them (I said thanks anyway through FB post). As the afternoon approaches a box of pastries was delivered by the receptionist. It’s from my friend. I just hope they stopped sending me bread and pastries since I am refraining from eating anything with flour and eggs.

After a back-to-back meeting another delivery today… I saw a bouquet of flowers on top of my table. Checked the card and just says (typewritten) “Thinking of you!”

I guess I have angels who remind me that I am special and thought about. I am a simple girl who appreciates act of kindness and thoughtfulness a lot! Thank you for brightening up my day!

#happyheart

Happy Heart

Life is a choice. It’s not about choosing what happens in your life. It’s about choosing to be happy – Wisz Kanadi


I read this over twitter and I believe this is true. I have come to love the beauty of appreciating life and everything that goes with it. May it be good or bad eventually it makes you the person that you are now. As we grow older our perspective of what is important in life changes. In times that I am faced with misfortunes, uncertainties, disappointments and bad luck I just choose to learn and let go. I embrace life as it happens and choose to have a happy heart

Mr. Know it All - Kelly Clarkson

Mr. Know It All

Well ya think you know it all
But ya don't know a thing at all
Ain't it, ain't it something y'all
When somebody tells you something 'bout you
Think that they know you more than you do
So you take it down another pill to swallow

Mr. Bring Me Down
Well ya, ya like to bring me down, don't you?
But I ain't laying down, baby, I ain't goin' down
Can't nobody tell me how it's gonna be
Nobody's gonna make a fool out of me
Baby, you should know that I lead not follow

[Chorus:]
Oh you think that you know me, know me
That's why I'm leaving you lonely, lonely
'Cause baby you don't know a thing about me
You don't know a thing about me
You ain't got the right to tell me
When and where to go, no right to tell me
Acting like you own me lately
Yeah baby you don't know a thing about me
You don't know a thing about me

Mr. Play Your Games
Only got yourself to blame when you want me back again
But I ain't falling back again
'Cause I'm living my truth without your lies
Let's be clear baby this is goodbye
I ain't coming back tomorrow

[Chorus:]

[Bridge:]
So what you've got the world at your feet
And you know everything about everything
But you don't
You still think I'm coming back but baby you'll see yeah...

[Chorus:]

Mr. Know It All
Well ya think you know it all
But ya don't know a thing at all
Yeah baby you don't know a thing about me
You don't know a thing about me

What kind of mask are you wearing?

"Do not judge men by mere appearances; for the light laughter that bubbles on the lip often mantles over the depths of sadness, and the serious look may be the sober veil that covers a divine peace and joy."-E. H. Chapin

#sadapple

Is this your life?

The worst thing that could ever happen to anyone.

#poorbanana







* pic from the net

You win some...you lose some

Sometimes no matter how you try it just won't work. Even if you have given your all...it's never enough. Patience ran out and the only thing left to do is just give up and let go. Simple courtesy and consideration now become difficult. What went wrong? I don't know. I value my friends and love ones a lot. But in times where you know you are not given the same...maybe there are things that are not meant to stay. It was good until it lasted.

H I A TU S

My mind is off work today currently listening to Secrets by One Republic. This song putting me in a trance...maybe this is what I need right now. Just to free my mind for a while.

I have been staring at this blank document in front of me for hours and I just can’t seem to stir up my brain to start doing some work. Thinking of going on a hiatus, just need to finish some commitments but eventually go away for a while. Haven’t been myself lately…must be PMSing but I am not sure. There are moments in your life that you are floating and not sure where you are standing.

Secrets – One Republic

I need another story

Something to get off my chest

My life gets kinda boring

Need something that i can confess

Till all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no, I've been on the brink, so
[CHORUS]
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that will light those ears
I'm sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm Gonna give all my secrets away
My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like were chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight to cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so
[CHORUS]
Got no reason
Got no shame
Got no family
I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'ma tell you everything
[CHORUS x2]
All my secrets away (x2)

Brush it off

Often times we are faced with either difficult situation, difficult people and if you are lucky…both. How do you deal with these things? As we get older we are expected to be wiser. I have been through hell and back with my life. Life is short and every moment should be something that you would like to remember as memorable. Good or bad? As long as it contributed to your well being and will make you a better person. Each moment spent should be a story to tell or remember. When faced with these circumstances I just choose to either:

• See things in a positive perspective
• Put myself in someone else’s shoes
• Pray harder that I have the patience and courage to deal with it
• Shake it off and move on
• Let it slide and totally forget about it
• Give more importance to people and relationship
• Be thankful of the other blessings that I have

If you let yourself be affected by this negativity then no one wins. Everyone is on a losing end. Life and situations are hard…no one said it is easy. You have the choice…don’t move and complain when stuck in a rain or learn to enjoy and experience it. Life is beautiful!

Stereo Hearts

Just lovin this song...make my heart sing.

Life is just better

If you read my previous blogs (some are still here and some I had to take out) you would know my real story. Maybe I said too much that is why I never really felt disclosing my identity here so that I can be more open and vocal about my thoughts. I made life changing decisions for 2011. Definitely things that will be for the books.

Is life better? Yes it is. I feel so blessed with many good things that was given to me for the past months. For the days I go to church and pray...God gave me what I have always been requesting. Healing from pain. I was free from it. It's been months now that I can say I am okay. Was comfortable being alone just loving the sanctuary of my home and my own solitude. I plan for myself and do things for myself and my love ones.

Though having someone would be nice.  Of course I do miss the feeling of being in love. I miss giving out surprises and taking care of someone.The times you call or text someone just to remind them of how special they are. That someone who is your driving force and support group of 1. If God grants it then I just consider it as a bonus.

Happiness is a perspective and I changed it. I try to see the good things in every bad situation. Appreciate everything that surrounds me. Made more friends and been traveling. Take care of myself more and eat healthier. I just prayed harder and been nicer.  Life has been good to me and I'm just happier. I can't complain. =)

So 2011 ends...

How will you celebrate your New Year's eve? That is the question I got from people. The usual...with family, food, drinks and lots of fun. I did get an invitation from someone. But of course family and friends come first. My Tatay will kill me if I am not with them. hahaha

The galavanter in me kicked in. It did cross my mind that I should plan a trip over the holidays next time. Get to experience different culture and be in a different place for a change. Hmmm...2012 or 2013 maybe.

Thinking of revamping the look of my blog. Maybe I will do it over the weekend if time permits. Been out and about recently doing more workout (no... I am not complaining). Have done a little traveling and will most likely do more next year. I am just glad I am back to my old self...the fun and carefree ME.

2011 ain't that bad. The year of challenges that made me stronger. The year of opportunities that made me better. The year of blessings that I am thankful for. The year that I met interesting people. The year I made life changing decisions. Life only gets better and to sum it up my life is awesomely fabulous.

Happy new year folks!

I don't want a perfect person. I just want someone to act silly with, someone who treats me well and loves being with me more than anything. ---The Notebook

It's been a looong time since the last time I felf comfortable being single and alone. I can catch up on so many things...go back to reading...go back to the gym...go out...meet people...take care of ME...not worry about anything...discovering life and people...hopefully traveling soon...planning one this month.

Life is just happier and sweeter.  I'm loving it!

Sometimes you just outgrow people.

Don't try to fight it, understand it, or repair it.

Just let it be.

Go ahead and just be happy.

Love comes to those who still hope after disappointment, who still believe after betrayal, and who still love after they've been hurt.

Don't beat yourself up over something that just didn't work out, especially if you know you didn't let go easy and truly gave it your best. #TLS