Friday Madness

Went to hangout at Hyatt Music Bar again...this is becoming our Friday habit. As usual our great baristas served us with superb drinks again. Non-stop drinking until we gave up.

Right after around 2:00AM when the DJ left I started taking over and played my own music at the bar. They usually play R & B and Hiphop songs but this time I played Chillout and House music. Based on the what I see I think they loved it...they were dancing to my music. hahaha I am not DJ Wannabe.

(Pinacolada, Blue Lagoon, Cranberry Vodka, Mint Chocolate,Lemon Drop, Mojito)

The Last One

I fell in love with you I don't know exactly when

I only know that I love you now

and i want to be with you today, tomorrow and always.

I have loved getting to know you because

I've learned to appreciate every aspect of what makes you the wonderful person that you are.

I feel I can share all of myself-

what I feel, what i think, and what I like

because you love the real me

Love came unexpectedly

and touched my soul

and I know for sure

that from now on, you are the one

I'm going to love and hold in my heart FOREVER.

***hallmark card

manquez-vous amour

Espérait être avec vous amour… Seul… Je vous manque… Attendait avec intérêt un jour spécial aujourd'hui… là sont des jours où il vous frappe juste mal… là n'est rien vous pouvez faire… Je vous manque amour !

I love...

I love how when we pass by a mirror or a window.

I can catch a glimpse of our reflections and see how good we look together...

I love how we call each other in the middle of the day for no particular reason

and how you let me tease you about things that nobody else had better mention...

I love how we can argue, make up, grow closer, and how we hug

I fit perfectly in your arms...

I love how this day gives me a reason to tell you what I love about us.

I love that I don't really need a reason...

Thanks Love...

Emergency Escapade

I wasn't feeling well yesterday since morning. Initially I thought I was just hungry when I woke up. Then I went to an early meeting at QC...as usual traffic was terrible. So I thought my dizziness was due to the driving of Mang Y. Panalo nman kasi magdrive tong tao na to parang free roller coaster ride lagi. Right after lunch I thought I'll feel better after eating. The whole day was sickening. I feel like throwing up, head is hurting like hell it's like being pricked by pins and needles, my back was killing me...barely make it to the parking. I finally decided to bring myself to the emergency room. I drove myself to a nearby hospital. Parked my car and had to fall in line. After 4 more patients the nurse took my temperature, blood pressure and had to answer all sorts of questions about my health history.

I was then endorsed to the Primary Care unit of the ER. Waited another 30 minutes to be attended. Another 15 minutes to be checked. Underwent initial screening for stroke...thanks goodness I passed that. The doctor requested my glucose/ sugar and blood tested. Another hour of waiting to get tested. Another hour to get the results.

I was diagnosed with Perpetual Vertigo, Hypoglycemia and Headache. They injected me with meds to keep me stable and I had to stay in the hospital until I can drive myself back home.

I didn't ask anyone to take me to the ER for I have always been independent and never rely on anyone especially on these things. I have been in this situation before where I had to go back and forth to the hospital every 2 weeks for years. I managed to get through it alone and I know I will be able to manage again this time. The doctor said I have to see an Endocrinologist to have my sugar and insulin checked plus an OB to see if my PCOS re-occurred. Hopefully I can do that anytime soon.

For now...here I am surviving this roller coaster ride that I alone am on...Vertigo sucks!

Meal: Sep 14-18

Was too busy last week with so much meetings and late night work at home. Was able to manage to cook somehow...made spags and steaks. Take outs for the rest of the week...should try to cook more this week.

The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown

The most awaited book by Dan Brown. I read all 4 that he previously wrote (The Da Vinci Code, Angels & Demons, Deception Point and Digital Fortress). He is one of the best writer I have ever read. It's the way he present the characters and scenes. You just can't stop reading and would go on and on until your eyes can't keep up anymore. There is never a dull page and story is never dragging. I got hooked on his previous books and been waiting for the next one to come out for so long. Saw a poster to promote the book release a couple of weeks ago at National Bookstore and you can make reservations on the first edition for Php 500. I was hesitant to buy the hard bound and was waiting for the soft bound which will take at least 6 months from initial publication. I totally forgot about it thinking I would just get it after a few months. I never knew it was out already until today.

I was having a long and tiring day at work. An Angel gave me a gift and it is a good surprise...one of the best thing ever. FINALLY I got it! It really made my day or even week =).

Thanks LOVE...You Made Me MORE Happy!

UNexpressway Skyway

Onli in da Pilipins...where expressway traffic is as bad as the regular roads on Friday night. Everyone from down south can relate to me on this experience. Ito ang eksena while I was rushing to go to Las Pinas and I decided to take the Skyway thinking it will be faster. Nevermind that I will pay extra on the toll for it's a Friday and traffic is chaotic in the Metro as expected. I was stuck for an hour on the Skyway...grabe my legs were killing me. Then there is this bus sobra nanggigitgit ayon napunta tuloy ako sa "e-pass only" lane. Thinking it was okay and I will just pay cash on the teller. Crap when I approached the toll gate there is no teller around. Good thing yung harang is still up and it gave me a green light. Pag sineswerte ka nga nman...I didn't get to pay the skyway toll. When I took the Sucat exit I was charged with the regular rate. I know I should be guilty for not paying the skyway but not my fault...walang teller eh. I was just lucky. =)

Boredom

Probably the difference between man and the monkeys is that the monkeys are merely bored, while man has boredom plus imagination.- Lin Yutang

Egg Yolk si Ms. Malas!

Sino makakapagsabi na mababangga na nman ako? Kungsabagay tuwing ako ay uupo sa manibela ineexpect ko na yun talaga. Pang-ilan na ito mula last quarter last year. Kawawang oto bugbog sarado na nman at may peklat sa likuran. Lintik kasing poste di umiwas nung ako ay umaatras. Pag minamalas ka talaga ang tindi biro mo magpapark na lang ako nadali pa. I know...I know...EGG YOLK (indiot)!!!
Last year a few days after I finished my driving lessons I trashed a car. Biro mo nanghiram na lang ako winasak ko pa. Dyahe sa may-ari kasi super love nya car nya and ako lang ang nakasira. Ayon tinamaan bumper, fender pati ilaw. Hassle kasi biro mo 1 week carless yung hiniraman ko(churi na). Eto pa ang matindi both cars (ung dala ko and nabangga ko) parehong di insured. So butas pa wallet ko. Savior Tatay ko kasi he was the one who made repairs on the other car na nasira and I was able to save at least around 22,000.

Right after that when I finally got my car after 2 months while driving along Alabang ayon KAPLANG...ako nman ang binangga. A student driving a Ford Lynx hit my 2 doors on the right. Apart from the minor rim scratches from hitting gutters and parking concrete barriers eto major talaga. I felt the car move inches away from my lane due to the impact. She was crying and ako ata natawa na lang. Nasanay na mabangga. hahaha.

One bangga from another and the last one is today. Kung may BOY MALAS ako na ata si MS MALAS. Minaster ko na ata ang skills ng banggaan. Someone suggested I get a new car baka ung car jinx and another one suggested I get a driver. Ang hassle nman magtaxi na lang kaya ako?. Para may matutunan nman kayo sa article na to here's how to handle situations like this when you get into a car accident:

• Make sure you have your license and photo copy of your car registration. Always have a photo copy in your car. Get a copy of the car registration and license of the other party.
• Take photos of the cars habang hindi pa naalis sa area. Make sure to take photos of every angle. If you don't have a digicam with you then use your phone camera.
• Make sure you take note of the street/ area where the accident happened and also the time it happened for you need these details on the police report.
• Drive to a nearby MMDA station if no traffic enforcer is around the area.
• Get a police report detailing the accident. Usually they charge Php500 for this. A police report will include testimonials of both parties on what happened, photo copies of licenses and car registration and photos of the cars. According to the traffic enforcer it will take a week before you get the police reports but I think this really depends on the area you are in. Of course alam nyo na ano ang mga susunod na mangyayari sa ganitong situation. WHat happened to me is it took longer that it supposed to kundi pa naglagay ng pampabilis we won't get the report on time.
• Call the insurance and inform them on the accident
• Get estimates on how much the repairs will cost. You need this before filing for the insurance.
• File for your insurance and make sure to follow up.
• Once you receive the approval then proceed to the dealer where you will have your car repair. Take note of the expiration date when you can bring your car to the service center. Usually the insurance company will give you 30 days upon issuance.

Akala mo lang simple but when you get into this situation sobrang sakit sa ulo. Good luck on your driving and hopefully umiwas ang mga poste at concrete barriers sa iyo. =P

As Strong As The Sun - Astro Nuts

Super love this song...reminds me of More good memories..this one is for you Love...



The one, the sun, the one for me

Sun never seems to shine that day
‘Coz you are not here
Sun never seems to light my way and at night, it kills

You were my life…You were, you were….You are the one for me
The one as strong as the sun
The one who’ll light up my life
You are the one for me
The one as strong as the sun
The one who’ll light up my lifeyou are…The one, the sun, the one for me

When midnight slowly fades to grayand black skies, stand still
If you could only see the plague
Don’t let it come I need your callCoz you are…You are the one for me
The one as strong as the sun
The one who’ll light up my life
You are the one for me
The one as strong as the sun
The one who’ll light up my life you are…

Candy Coolness

We were hanging out at Hyatt with Teks, Boy and Kioffs. A VIP guest gave boy some candies and super galing. It actually lights and in different colors and flavors. Then there's a bunch of miniature Soda candies and they are actually carbonated. Of course I have to get myself some of those. Here are pictures I took of them...sorry it's kinda labo I just used my phone cam. I am kid at heart and I love candies more than chocolates especially the astig ones. =)

Should I Stay or Should I Go?

When opportunities come your way will you take it? I currently have a good job and not really actively looking. Then an offshore opportunity came....I have been contemplating on leaving the country for a while now. This company has been offering me work since last year. I got through the final interview and it's just a matter of negotations on overall package which can happen anytime soon.

I used to have a big reason for not leaving no matter how tempting the offer is. Then something happened. Things have changed and I now see leaving as my way of escaping. Just about when my life turned around this opportunity came.

My Tatay does not favor me leaving and personally I am somehow doubtful for I can no longer contribute to the development of our country. I may be able to send some $ back home but that does not equate to the things I can do when I am here. There are only a few project managers in the country and helping in grooming new project managers who does government projects is my way of sharing my skills in making this a better world.

Sometimes you care too much even if others don't. You worry too much when others don't. I now ask myself...should I continue to care and worry? Are there enough reason for me to stay or is this enough reason to go? If you can give me more reason then I may reconsider.

Jaded

Barely make it through the day. I am tired, overworked, hungry and sleepy...

• Tired= been working my @$$ since the weekend...it's a long weekend and I didn't even get the chance to go out of town =(. Did get to hangout with family though and manage to squeeze in some drinks and karaoke. My car is coding today so another ordeal I have to get through is to get a cab and go home.


• Overworked= juggling 3 huge projects and they all committed my 100% time on all, managing 5 Project Managers, managing company project portfolio, hiring 3 Project Managers, doing presentations and documentations, attending 3-5 meetings daily...and the list goes on and on


• Hungry= no time to eat anymore especially on a weekday. Forgot to eat dinner last night and I am having my lunch just now and it's almost 6PM.


• Sleepy= don't have the time to sleep...apart from being an insomiac I had to bring home some work so I have time for other task during the day. Slept at 5 am the other day to finish my presentation.

My life have to change...things have to change. It's either I'll die soon or get ugly due to stress.

Favorite Spot

R.S.V.P 0724140530

Cook in Me 2- Experimental Main Dish

Here are some more dishes that I made for the past months..have always wanted to put up my own restaurant. I keep a black book listing all the ingredients that I use for my recipe...as for how I cook them I am still lazy to write it down. Forgive me my dear readers...hopefully soon I can share some recipe with you.

(Citrus Chops with Baked Cheesy Potatoes; Instant Curry Fried Rice; Cream of Dory with Basmati Rice and Steamed Veges; Pork Ala Pobre; Chicken Fingers with Bacon Mashed Potatoes; Beef Brocoli)

Friday Drinking Feast

Once every Friday we drop by at Hyatt Music Bar just to hangout and release the workweek stress. Mae the bar manager is a very great host and serves us with different coctail mixes. Hyatt serves one of the best drink in the Metro. Try their Mango Palooza and Carnival Martini...another superb drink is the Kiwi Apple Fizz. Here are some drinks I have tried so far:












(Mojito Cooler, Strawberry Daiquiri, Mint Mojito, Hypirina Mojito, Blow job, Apple Martini, Mango Palooza, Apple Kiwi Fizz, Carnival Martini, Mango Baileys)

Taste: 5 out of 5; Price: Have no idea...drinks were for free...hahaha; Sanitation: 5 out of 5

Shawarma Snack Center

If you are within Manila and you would like a taste of a great Indian food...I know a great one. Nothing fancy just a simple restaurant who serves one of the best shawarma rice and green salad. Not to mention the cheap price....it along Salas St near Mabini St in Malate.

Definitely order their Shawarma Rice (Basmati Rice with pine nuts) and Spicy Beef Curry.

Taste: 4 out of 5; Price: 5 out of 5; Sanitation: 3 out of 5

Grant Me the Courage

I was angry...really angry...I was never this mad in my entire life. When you think everything is doing okay then something really bad happens and there is nothing I can do. Maybe God has other plans for everyone. What will I do? I still haven't figure that out...I am in a blackhole right now...nowhere...nothing...everything is endless...everything is worthless.

Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;

Courage to change the things I can;

And wisdom to know the difference.

Lord help me survive this greatest challenge in my life. I give it all up to you now. Please take care of me.

The Perfect Love Song

Today I finally got it. My best gift ever...a song written for me. The lyrics has been given to me way back but it's just today I finally heard it. It is full of emotions...I can't help myself but cry when I listen to it. Galeng sobra! This song will always be special and the best birthday gift I ever got.

Super Thanks...More Love!

My Angel Without Wings

During my darkest hour you never left me. During the hardest time you are always there. During trials you walked beside me. During failures you held my hand and lift me up. When in doubt you gave me assurance. When I feel neglected you made me feel special. When I feel forsaken you were there to be with me. You are my angel without wings...my precious...

I miss you love...

You've Lost That Lovin' Feeling

I was driving to work and Friday Madness was playing at 89.9. Panalo sa song playing and talagang natawa ako...called up my couz Teks and we sang to it with all our hearts out...hahaha. This is for you couz..."TO THE WOUNDS THAT NEVER HEAL"...


You've Lost That Lovin' Feeling

You never close your eyes anymore when I kiss your lips
And there's no tenderness like before in your finger tips
You're trying hard not to show it
But baby, baby I know itYou've Lost That Lovin' Feeling
Oh that Lovin' FeelingYou've Lost That Lovin' Feeling
Now it's gone gone gone oh oh oh
There's no welcome look in your eyes when I reach for you
And girl you're starting to criticize little things I do
Ooh, it makes me just feel like crying (baby)
'Cause baby something beautiful's dying
You've Lost That Lovin' Feeling
Oh that Lovin' Feeling
You've Lost That Lovin' Feeling
Not it's gone gone gone oh oh oh
Baby baby I get down on my knees for you
If you would only love me like you used to(If you would only love me love me)
We had a love, a love that you don't find everyday(A love you don't find)
So don't don't don't let it slip away (away)
I said babyBabyBabyBabyI need your love (I need your love)
I need your loveSo bring it on back (bring it on back)
Now bring it on backNow bring it on back
You've got to bring back that lovin' feeling
Oh that lovin' feelingBring back that lovin' feeling 'cause it's gone gone goneoh oh oh
Bring back that lovin' feeling
Oh that lovin' feeling
Bring back that lovin' feeling 'cause it's gone gone gone
Bring back that lovin' feelingOh that lovin' feeling
Bring back that lovin' feeling 'cause it's gone gone gone
Bring back that lovin' feeling

Never to Ask Again

I always believe that giving your best at any situation is the right thing to do. Giving and not expecting...giving and not feeling. But one day you just wake up and realize there is nothing to give anymore. No matter how much you try it will always be the same to them...what you did is nothing...just a regular thing. You remain less interesting.

I have to love myself more than anyone else. I need to take care of myself more than anything else. I have given myself away too much already and it's time to take myself back...back to where it's going to be appreciated...well taken care and loved.

If they don't want to try then why should I? If you can give me a good enough reason for this then maybe I can reconsider. I am getting tired of giving away myself...getting tired of waiting for nothing...getting tired of being taken for granted. I will never ask for directions anymore...I am done. Whatever comes then so be it.

My Nirvana

I have been meaning to write about this but just finding the right title for it.


NIRVANA- The Buddha described nirvana as the perfect peace of the state of mind that is free from craving, anger and other afflictive states..."the highest happiness".


Doesn't everyone have a happy place? A place where they go when everything else is going wrong...when you want to escape this crazy world. It's where you find your peace and time stood still. It's the cooling air that blows on your face and the sound of trees as they dance with the wind...the waves of the water and the chirping of the birds. It's where I catch my beLOVEd sunset. After a crazy day it gives me peace and calmness.


Grab a cup of extra hot Starbucks Cafe Mocha with Hazelnut and Mint, chicken basil sandwich, a bag of Lays potato chips or a tray of california maki. Off I go...a place I share with another lost soul in search of life...my LOVE. We sit down over the edge, sip on the hot coffee...watching my ever colorful sunset. My mind is liberated from all worries and problems...at least for a moment my mind is free. Going here gives me a breather from the stressful life that we all have.


Here are some pictures I have taken using my phone camera and the only thing I can share with you:





This is my secret place...MY OWN NIRVANA I will be selfish this time and can't tell you where this is exactly for this is MY secret sanctuary and it won't be the same if everyone knows about it.

When do you know it's real?

Have you been in love? In love...in a REAL sense of the meaning of TRUE love? When do you know it is real? How can you tell if it is just an infatuation or false assumption or attachment or need?

You know it is real If:
* it makes you a better person...you have and wilL become your full potential
* it makes you feel cOmplete (parang mala Jerry Maquire...you complete me)
* it is not selfish and is giVing without expecting anything in return
* it is uncoditional and vEry forgiving
* it is consistent and never rockY
* it understands and seldOm question
* there is trUst, openess and respect
* it accepts the whole you including your faults and brokeness
* it makes you sMile without him/ her doing anything special
* you cAn see yourself growing old together
* it never doubts wHat you feel
* it complements your weAkness and encourage your strenghts
* it is unwavering in spite of any probLems and challenges
* it never gives up and will keep trying
* it goes beyond beauty and material things
* you can stay true and will never intend to hurt
* you can waKe up with the same person for the rest of your life
* you want to be with the persOn not because of need/ obligation but because of choice
* you can stand up for the person regardless of any trials you have to face
* you die and have to re-live your life you still will choose to be in it

My list can go on and yet you may still not know what you really want. Have I been in love in a real sense...I have...the level may vary of course. Whoever is been in love like this is very lucky for we rarely find it in one lifetime. If you are in it treasure it and make it work. You just don't know how many people would want to be in your shoes now. There are some people who stay in a relationship because of need or obligation. This is not a matter of just being happy but it's a matter of being true to yourself and the people around you. Sometimes you have to make difficult choices but in the long run those were the best choices you may have made for the rest of your life. It is not too late to change and decide...make it happen until you still have the time and chance to do it.

Is it for real? You alone can say that for not everyone knows what you really feel and they don't know what will really make you happy. You are the only one who can make your life worth living.

Have a great Sunday LOVE!

***pic from the net