Please Don't Leave Me- Pink

A song I have been playing over and over in my car for a long drive...

Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da, da da
Da da da, da da
I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many time I've kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
Da da da, da da

I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
But my heart is broken
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me (2x)
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please, don't leave me
How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Da da da, da da

Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Oh please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I cannot be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I'm sorry
Da da da, da da
Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da, da da
Please, please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)

Baby please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no
You say I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back
It's gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me
Please don't leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please don't leave me
Baby, please, please don't leave me

The Five Steps of a Breast Self-Exam

Step 1: Begin by looking at your breasts in the mirror with your shoulders straight and your arms on your hips.
Here's what you should look for:

• Breasts that are their usual size, shape, and color
• Breasts that are evenly shaped without visible distortion or swelling

If you see any of the following changes, bring them to your doctor's attention:
Dimpling, puckering, or bulging of the skin
A nipple that has changed position or an inverted nipple (pushed inward instead of sticking out)
Redness, soreness, rash, or swelling
Step 2: Now, raise your arms and look for the same changes.

Step 3: While you're at the mirror, look for any signs of fluid coming out of one or both nipples (this could be a watery, milky, or yellow fluid or blood).
Step 4: Next, feel your breasts while lying down, using your right hand to feel your left breast and then your left hand to feel your right breast. Use a firm, smooth touch with the first few finger pads of your hand, keeping the fingers flat and together. Use a circular motion, about the size of a quarter.

Cover the entire breast from top to bottom, side to side — from your collarbone to the top of your abdomen, and from your armpit to your cleavage.

Follow a pattern to be sure that you cover the whole breast. You can begin at the nipple, moving in larger and larger circles until you reach the outer edge of the breast. You can also move your fingers up and down vertically, in rows, as if you were mowing a lawn. This up-and-down approach seems to work best for most women. Be sure to feel all the tissue from the front to the back of your breasts: for the skin and tissue just beneath, use light pressure; use medium pressure for tissue in the middle of your breasts; use firm pressure for the deep tissue in the back. When you've reached the deep tissue, you should be able to feel down to your ribcage.

Step 5: Finally, feel your breasts while you are standing or sitting. Many women find that the easiest way to feel their breasts is when their skin is wet and slippery, so they like to do this step in the shower. Cover your entire breast, using the same hand movements described in Step 4.

If you are:

• 20's++ - monthly self breast exam
• 30's++ -
• monthly self breast exam
• clinical exam annually
• mamography/ sodomamography (at 35 if you are at high risk)
• 40's++ -
• monthly self breast exam
• clinical exam annually
• mamography/ sodomamography annually

Earlier detection is always the best cure...save life and know your own body.

***Source: http://www.breastcancer.org

H & E @ G4 (Rockstar Edition)

Used to be Heaven and Eggs and now they named it H & E (the rockstar edition). They changed their theme from countryside sunny with yellow and wind mill design to rockstar modern interiors. Food were named from rockstar legends as well (Eggs Zepellins; Guns & Griddle; Hendrix Hot Links Omelet; Mick Jaggers's Chicken and Buscuits;  Van Halen's Frech Toast, etc). The food is okay...I was disappointed with the steak for it sobrang kunat. I had to return it and order another beef dish. The second one was raw to my taste...told the waiter to have it well done. But I was hungry so I ate it anyway.  Not sure if it was the meat that time but I ate there before and food was great naman. Mashed potato was okay and asparagus. Hopefully next time around I will be more pleased.

Rock You Like A Hurricane

Roast Beefin' On the Edge

Ratings: Taste 4 out of 5; Price 4 out of 5; Food Quality 3 out of 5; Sanitation 4 out of 5

Ground Floor Glorietta 4, Ayala Center, Makati City

Tel No: (632) 818 2792

May Humps

What is Myoma?

Myoma -A solid tumor made of fibrous tissue, hence it is often called a 'fibroid' tumor. Most often slow-growing and usually cause no symptoms. The most frequently diagnosed tumor of the female pelvis and the most common reason for a woman to have a hysterectomy. The condition usually affects women over the age of 30 and women who have never been pregnant are particularly susceptible. The main symptom of a myoma is excessive, painful menstrual bleeding.

Anyone initially diagnosed with this is suggested to bear a child soon before the humps grows to full blown and hysterectomy will be done.

There are three common types of uterine myoma (fibroid), classified primarily according to location in the uterus:

1. Submucosal uterine myoma (fibroid)
   This is when the myoma develops just under the lining of the uterine cavity. This type of uterine myoma often causes heavy menstrual bleeding as well as problems with fertility and miscarriages.


2. Subserosal uterine myoma (fibroid)
   This is when the myoma develops on the outer portion of the uterus and continue to grow outward.


3. Intramural uterine myoma (fibroid)
   This is the most common type of uterine myoma. They develop within the uterine wall and expand. This makes the uterus look and feel larger than normal (may causes bulk symptoms").

What are Common symptoms?

• Pain in the back of the legs
• Pelvic pain or pressure
• Very heavy and prolonged menstrual periods
• Pressure on the bowel which may lead to constipation and/or bloating
• An enlarged abdomen (this may be mistaken for weight gain or pregnancy)
• Pain during sexual intercourse
• Pressure on the bladder which results in: a perpetual need to urinate, incontinence, or the inability to empty the bladder

***source: http://www.myoma.co.uk

For Upset Tummy

Who says you can't enjoy eating healthy? When someone is sick that is the time you can exaust all your effort in thinking what food to cook to make him well. He was suffering indigestion for days already so I decided to make a meal that he can eat and enjoy at the same time. Anyone sufferring from diarrhea make sure to remember these things so as not to worsen the condition:

• Drink lots of water, gatorade or glucolite to prevent dehydration
• No oily and fatty food
• Avoid beef and pork...steamed white meat chicken and fish are better for they can be digested easier plus you get your daily protein needs.
• No dairy products except for Yogurt. Look for yogurt that contains live or active cultures.
• Try white rice and mashed potatoe-skip the butter and milk. Add spices instead for flavor
• White bread and crackers -eat whole grain products
• Have some tea-Chamomile and Peppermint is the best for it has a soothing effect.
• Eat Bananas- it calms upset stomach
• Avoid Sugar -Free food-it can have laxative effects
• Avoid gas producing food-Beans, Broccoli, Cabbage, Cauliflower, Onions, Sweet potatoes

Here are pictures of the food I made...talk about comfort food:

Seven Years Saga and Over

It's been years that we keep in touch and remain friends. We were more than friends for a long time but decided to keep it platonic a couple of years back. It was a relationship that was not meant to last.

Though we managed to live our lives separately there is this thin thread that keeps us connected somehow. Maybe because we have been through a lot when we were together. Through a lot in a sense that we witness most of the great and worst things that happened in our lives. For some time he was that one person you run to when things go wrong. That one person who will never forsake you and will be there no matter what. That one person who will listen to anything you have to say. Though we don't talk often we just know where to pick up when we get in touch.

Today I decided to cut that thin thread that connects us. There is no sense of keeping it. Maybe that is the only thing that is holding everyone from moving on and living their own life separatetly. For the longest time I kept everything he has given me...maybe because I never thought of throwing it away yet...or just never get the chance to. Whatever reason that is keeping me from doing it I don't know. But last night I finally did. Time to clean your closet of old stuff...time to let go of those old stuff. I have this self imposed policy of not keeping memories , cards, pics or anything that will remind me of my past relationship. This is out of respect for whoever I am with or anyone in the future.

For so long I never thought I can get through this...it was easier than expected but of course you still feel that little part of you dying. Any memory of anyone may it be a lover, friend or family that goes away permanently will always be a part of you. When you try to get over it ...that part of you dies with it.

Today the 7 years saga ends...finally it ends and I am free. A closure I have been wanting for so long.

Friday Madness

Went to hangout at Hyatt Music Bar again...this is becoming our Friday habit. As usual our great baristas served us with superb drinks again. Non-stop drinking until we gave up.

Right after around 2:00AM when the DJ left I started taking over and played my own music at the bar. They usually play R & B and Hiphop songs but this time I played Chillout and House music. Based on the what I see I think they loved it...they were dancing to my music. hahaha I am not DJ Wannabe.

(Pinacolada, Blue Lagoon, Cranberry Vodka, Mint Chocolate,Lemon Drop, Mojito)

The Last One

I fell in love with you I don't know exactly when

I only know that I love you now

and i want to be with you today, tomorrow and always.

I have loved getting to know you because

I've learned to appreciate every aspect of what makes you the wonderful person that you are.

I feel I can share all of myself-

what I feel, what i think, and what I like

because you love the real me

Love came unexpectedly

and touched my soul

and I know for sure

that from now on, you are the one

I'm going to love and hold in my heart FOREVER.

***hallmark card

manquez-vous amour

Espérait être avec vous amour… Seul… Je vous manque… Attendait avec intérêt un jour spécial aujourd'hui… là sont des jours où il vous frappe juste mal… là n'est rien vous pouvez faire… Je vous manque amour !

I love...

I love how when we pass by a mirror or a window.

I can catch a glimpse of our reflections and see how good we look together...

I love how we call each other in the middle of the day for no particular reason

and how you let me tease you about things that nobody else had better mention...

I love how we can argue, make up, grow closer, and how we hug

I fit perfectly in your arms...

I love how this day gives me a reason to tell you what I love about us.

I love that I don't really need a reason...

Thanks Love...

Emergency Escapade

I wasn't feeling well yesterday since morning. Initially I thought I was just hungry when I woke up. Then I went to an early meeting at QC...as usual traffic was terrible. So I thought my dizziness was due to the driving of Mang Y. Panalo nman kasi magdrive tong tao na to parang free roller coaster ride lagi. Right after lunch I thought I'll feel better after eating. The whole day was sickening. I feel like throwing up, head is hurting like hell it's like being pricked by pins and needles, my back was killing me...barely make it to the parking. I finally decided to bring myself to the emergency room. I drove myself to a nearby hospital. Parked my car and had to fall in line. After 4 more patients the nurse took my temperature, blood pressure and had to answer all sorts of questions about my health history.

I was then endorsed to the Primary Care unit of the ER. Waited another 30 minutes to be attended. Another 15 minutes to be checked. Underwent initial screening for stroke...thanks goodness I passed that. The doctor requested my glucose/ sugar and blood tested. Another hour of waiting to get tested. Another hour to get the results.

I was diagnosed with Perpetual Vertigo, Hypoglycemia and Headache. They injected me with meds to keep me stable and I had to stay in the hospital until I can drive myself back home.

I didn't ask anyone to take me to the ER for I have always been independent and never rely on anyone especially on these things. I have been in this situation before where I had to go back and forth to the hospital every 2 weeks for years. I managed to get through it alone and I know I will be able to manage again this time. The doctor said I have to see an Endocrinologist to have my sugar and insulin checked plus an OB to see if my PCOS re-occurred. Hopefully I can do that anytime soon.

For now...here I am surviving this roller coaster ride that I alone am on...Vertigo sucks!

Meal: Sep 14-18

Was too busy last week with so much meetings and late night work at home. Was able to manage to cook somehow...made spags and steaks. Take outs for the rest of the week...should try to cook more this week.

The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown

The most awaited book by Dan Brown. I read all 4 that he previously wrote (The Da Vinci Code, Angels & Demons, Deception Point and Digital Fortress). He is one of the best writer I have ever read. It's the way he present the characters and scenes. You just can't stop reading and would go on and on until your eyes can't keep up anymore. There is never a dull page and story is never dragging. I got hooked on his previous books and been waiting for the next one to come out for so long. Saw a poster to promote the book release a couple of weeks ago at National Bookstore and you can make reservations on the first edition for Php 500. I was hesitant to buy the hard bound and was waiting for the soft bound which will take at least 6 months from initial publication. I totally forgot about it thinking I would just get it after a few months. I never knew it was out already until today.

I was having a long and tiring day at work. An Angel gave me a gift and it is a good surprise...one of the best thing ever. FINALLY I got it! It really made my day or even week =).

Thanks LOVE...You Made Me MORE Happy!

UNexpressway Skyway

Onli in da Pilipins...where expressway traffic is as bad as the regular roads on Friday night. Everyone from down south can relate to me on this experience. Ito ang eksena while I was rushing to go to Las Pinas and I decided to take the Skyway thinking it will be faster. Nevermind that I will pay extra on the toll for it's a Friday and traffic is chaotic in the Metro as expected. I was stuck for an hour on the Skyway...grabe my legs were killing me. Then there is this bus sobra nanggigitgit ayon napunta tuloy ako sa "e-pass only" lane. Thinking it was okay and I will just pay cash on the teller. Crap when I approached the toll gate there is no teller around. Good thing yung harang is still up and it gave me a green light. Pag sineswerte ka nga nman...I didn't get to pay the skyway toll. When I took the Sucat exit I was charged with the regular rate. I know I should be guilty for not paying the skyway but not my fault...walang teller eh. I was just lucky. =)

Boredom

Probably the difference between man and the monkeys is that the monkeys are merely bored, while man has boredom plus imagination.- Lin Yutang

Egg Yolk si Ms. Malas!

Sino makakapagsabi na mababangga na nman ako? Kungsabagay tuwing ako ay uupo sa manibela ineexpect ko na yun talaga. Pang-ilan na ito mula last quarter last year. Kawawang oto bugbog sarado na nman at may peklat sa likuran. Lintik kasing poste di umiwas nung ako ay umaatras. Pag minamalas ka talaga ang tindi biro mo magpapark na lang ako nadali pa. I know...I know...EGG YOLK (indiot)!!!
Last year a few days after I finished my driving lessons I trashed a car. Biro mo nanghiram na lang ako winasak ko pa. Dyahe sa may-ari kasi super love nya car nya and ako lang ang nakasira. Ayon tinamaan bumper, fender pati ilaw. Hassle kasi biro mo 1 week carless yung hiniraman ko(churi na). Eto pa ang matindi both cars (ung dala ko and nabangga ko) parehong di insured. So butas pa wallet ko. Savior Tatay ko kasi he was the one who made repairs on the other car na nasira and I was able to save at least around 22,000.

Right after that when I finally got my car after 2 months while driving along Alabang ayon KAPLANG...ako nman ang binangga. A student driving a Ford Lynx hit my 2 doors on the right. Apart from the minor rim scratches from hitting gutters and parking concrete barriers eto major talaga. I felt the car move inches away from my lane due to the impact. She was crying and ako ata natawa na lang. Nasanay na mabangga. hahaha.

One bangga from another and the last one is today. Kung may BOY MALAS ako na ata si MS MALAS. Minaster ko na ata ang skills ng banggaan. Someone suggested I get a new car baka ung car jinx and another one suggested I get a driver. Ang hassle nman magtaxi na lang kaya ako?. Para may matutunan nman kayo sa article na to here's how to handle situations like this when you get into a car accident:

• Make sure you have your license and photo copy of your car registration. Always have a photo copy in your car. Get a copy of the car registration and license of the other party.
• Take photos of the cars habang hindi pa naalis sa area. Make sure to take photos of every angle. If you don't have a digicam with you then use your phone camera.
• Make sure you take note of the street/ area where the accident happened and also the time it happened for you need these details on the police report.
• Drive to a nearby MMDA station if no traffic enforcer is around the area.
• Get a police report detailing the accident. Usually they charge Php500 for this. A police report will include testimonials of both parties on what happened, photo copies of licenses and car registration and photos of the cars. According to the traffic enforcer it will take a week before you get the police reports but I think this really depends on the area you are in. Of course alam nyo na ano ang mga susunod na mangyayari sa ganitong situation. WHat happened to me is it took longer that it supposed to kundi pa naglagay ng pampabilis we won't get the report on time.
• Call the insurance and inform them on the accident
• Get estimates on how much the repairs will cost. You need this before filing for the insurance.
• File for your insurance and make sure to follow up.
• Once you receive the approval then proceed to the dealer where you will have your car repair. Take note of the expiration date when you can bring your car to the service center. Usually the insurance company will give you 30 days upon issuance.

Akala mo lang simple but when you get into this situation sobrang sakit sa ulo. Good luck on your driving and hopefully umiwas ang mga poste at concrete barriers sa iyo. =P

As Strong As The Sun - Astro Nuts

Super love this song...reminds me of More good memories..this one is for you Love...



The one, the sun, the one for me

Sun never seems to shine that day
‘Coz you are not here
Sun never seems to light my way and at night, it kills

You were my life…You were, you were….You are the one for me
The one as strong as the sun
The one who’ll light up my life
You are the one for me
The one as strong as the sun
The one who’ll light up my lifeyou are…The one, the sun, the one for me

When midnight slowly fades to grayand black skies, stand still
If you could only see the plague
Don’t let it come I need your callCoz you are…You are the one for me
The one as strong as the sun
The one who’ll light up my life
You are the one for me
The one as strong as the sun
The one who’ll light up my life you are…

Candy Coolness

We were hanging out at Hyatt with Teks, Boy and Kioffs. A VIP guest gave boy some candies and super galing. It actually lights and in different colors and flavors. Then there's a bunch of miniature Soda candies and they are actually carbonated. Of course I have to get myself some of those. Here are pictures I took of them...sorry it's kinda labo I just used my phone cam. I am kid at heart and I love candies more than chocolates especially the astig ones. =)

Should I Stay or Should I Go?

When opportunities come your way will you take it? I currently have a good job and not really actively looking. Then an offshore opportunity came....I have been contemplating on leaving the country for a while now. This company has been offering me work since last year. I got through the final interview and it's just a matter of negotations on overall package which can happen anytime soon.

I used to have a big reason for not leaving no matter how tempting the offer is. Then something happened. Things have changed and I now see leaving as my way of escaping. Just about when my life turned around this opportunity came.

My Tatay does not favor me leaving and personally I am somehow doubtful for I can no longer contribute to the development of our country. I may be able to send some $ back home but that does not equate to the things I can do when I am here. There are only a few project managers in the country and helping in grooming new project managers who does government projects is my way of sharing my skills in making this a better world.

Sometimes you care too much even if others don't. You worry too much when others don't. I now ask myself...should I continue to care and worry? Are there enough reason for me to stay or is this enough reason to go? If you can give me more reason then I may reconsider.

Jaded

Barely make it through the day. I am tired, overworked, hungry and sleepy...

• Tired= been working my @$$ since the weekend...it's a long weekend and I didn't even get the chance to go out of town =(. Did get to hangout with family though and manage to squeeze in some drinks and karaoke. My car is coding today so another ordeal I have to get through is to get a cab and go home.


• Overworked= juggling 3 huge projects and they all committed my 100% time on all, managing 5 Project Managers, managing company project portfolio, hiring 3 Project Managers, doing presentations and documentations, attending 3-5 meetings daily...and the list goes on and on


• Hungry= no time to eat anymore especially on a weekday. Forgot to eat dinner last night and I am having my lunch just now and it's almost 6PM.


• Sleepy= don't have the time to sleep...apart from being an insomiac I had to bring home some work so I have time for other task during the day. Slept at 5 am the other day to finish my presentation.

My life have to change...things have to change. It's either I'll die soon or get ugly due to stress.

Favorite Spot

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Cook in Me 2- Experimental Main Dish

Here are some more dishes that I made for the past months..have always wanted to put up my own restaurant. I keep a black book listing all the ingredients that I use for my recipe...as for how I cook them I am still lazy to write it down. Forgive me my dear readers...hopefully soon I can share some recipe with you.

(Citrus Chops with Baked Cheesy Potatoes; Instant Curry Fried Rice; Cream of Dory with Basmati Rice and Steamed Veges; Pork Ala Pobre; Chicken Fingers with Bacon Mashed Potatoes; Beef Brocoli)

Friday Drinking Feast

Once every Friday we drop by at Hyatt Music Bar just to hangout and release the workweek stress. Mae the bar manager is a very great host and serves us with different coctail mixes. Hyatt serves one of the best drink in the Metro. Try their Mango Palooza and Carnival Martini...another superb drink is the Kiwi Apple Fizz. Here are some drinks I have tried so far:












(Mojito Cooler, Strawberry Daiquiri, Mint Mojito, Hypirina Mojito, Blow job, Apple Martini, Mango Palooza, Apple Kiwi Fizz, Carnival Martini, Mango Baileys)

Taste: 5 out of 5; Price: Have no idea...drinks were for free...hahaha; Sanitation: 5 out of 5

Shawarma Snack Center

If you are within Manila and you would like a taste of a great Indian food...I know a great one. Nothing fancy just a simple restaurant who serves one of the best shawarma rice and green salad. Not to mention the cheap price....it along Salas St near Mabini St in Malate.

Definitely order their Shawarma Rice (Basmati Rice with pine nuts) and Spicy Beef Curry.

Taste: 4 out of 5; Price: 5 out of 5; Sanitation: 3 out of 5